Memories ~

aku nggak tau kenapa, setiap aku inget masa lalu itu ada ada aja rasanya. yang inget ini lah, inget itu lah duuh bikin pusing (?) haha no, that isn't right. Now, I'll tell you about something

Last time, my friends chat me on bbm. He said that "Can you help me cut? Can you answer my question? I need your solution very much" then I just said "Yes, of course". after that he asked me "how is he showed his love to you? *myex* on bbm? on the phone? or face to face?" fuuuuh after I read it, feel so hmm something different. I felt that I had forgot what has he done for me? He showed his love in front of everybody in break time school. ooh seriously I don't known how was he felt when he said that he want to be my *secret* . And I had never believe that someone still care with me?! And, that's very fantastic. He was so brave. And I love it ;) but :(
I can't mantain that relationship, cause someone :( fuh so disgusting-_______-


keyh that's my story about memories ~

Wanna cry :"

when I see your name, feel so wanna cry
I don't know why?
Maybe, you're too hurt me, or I'm too love you, or I can't leave you I don't know why?


But, its come in my mind that you've hurt me :' and ignored me from your list friends :( you're changed :(


you arn't like before :( before you're so kind. and now? you're very save your potition from me. look that I was made from ruby


why? what happen to you? I miss you before. last year. we always together :' feel the different view and feelling in each other


but now, just wanna cry when I see you.. I need you but I know that you're don't like me.. maybe you can't near with me. I don't know why, but the impotant one, I can accept the minus from you :)
that's LOVE and this felling is fall to you, no one can change it and pleasee understand also respect my fellings :'

still saved our memory

calm down baby, I still saved our memory :) I will never forget it.. cause you're the best ex that I've ever had :)) thank you that you have painted my day with your joke, attention, love, and anything :) remember that I will never forget you and I will always save you in this heart and brain :) ~

my relationshps was th end ;"

honestly, I admit that I still care.. but, I can continue this relantionships..
I dnt know why? I dnt know wht was happened in this brain and heart. although I know that him, wasn't care and want to continue this relationship. and, I jut can accpt it with my smile :)


honestly from the depths heart, I still care still need you .. But when O remember something that made me feeling lost, instantly my feeling to you feel normal and not want to continue this relationship...


I hope you know what I mean and I hope you can get better than me :)

Just Wanna Be With You :*

I got a lot of things
I have to do
All this distractions
Our future is coming soon


Were being pulled
A hundred different directions
But whatever happens
I know I've got you


You're on my mind
You're in my heart
It doesn't matter where we are
Well be alright
Even if were
Miles apart


All I wanna do
Is be with you
Be with you
There's nothing we can't do
Just wanna be with you
Only you


No matter where life takes us
Nothing can break us apart
You know its true
I just wanna be with you
Hey..
Just be with you
Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah


You know how  life can be
it changes overnight
Its sunny then raining
But its allright


A friend like you
Always makes it easy
I know that you get me
Everytime


Trough every up
Trough every down
Yuou know I'll always be around
Trough anything
you can count on me

aqua :'(

I really couldnot believe my feelings are natural. very doubtful. confused. between like to be forgotten. but so hard to forget. I always met him. I really want to say I HATE YOU. but I know I really have been lying to myself. please, release your eyes stare you gave me. Honestly, I can look too happy when I see your face. Moreover, can see you staring at my eyes with your beautiful eyes. It was too happy when I know you were there. but,please ! don't make me like this. Too uncertain and will never be honest to myself that I like you. So, please go away from me, now! But, if you goaway, maybe i can't smile as used again, for 1 day :((. but, for now can't do anything for my feeling. I don't care again. I'm tired must think what must I do for this feeling. So bad in this heart Please, don't give me hope again. Too bad for me. so, don't give it to me again :(

I FEEL SO HURT YOU KNOW !

iya aku tau. aku tau aku siapa. tapi, bisakan kamu nggak bm lagi ke aku? 
kamu  suruh aku lupakan kamu ! tapi kamu malah dekati aku :( apa maumu :(
kalo udah gini, kamu sakitin aku didepan umum :( coba kamu jadi aku :'( gimana rasanya tolong hargain aku yang berusahan merelakan kamu dengan yang lain :( coba sadar ! ada aku yang setia menunggu kamu ! meskipun kamu cinta yang lain :'( 


really, i feel the hurts that i've ever felt it :( and, YOU was make it so much more hurt :'(